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Name: Christina C.
Birthday: 8/23/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: things that i am an expert in
Expertise: things that i am interested in
Occupation: Student
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Member Since:
6/4/2004
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| Why am I feeling so... unsatisfied right now? What I want... I'm not quite so sure of anymore.
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| Xanga is just about as dead as ______________________ a) Katie Holmes'
career, b) Tom Cruises' sense of reality, c) my ass during finals
It's not so hard to pare down life as lived right now by several words:
studying and finishing papers (last minute, of course) at 4:00 in the
morning with Samurai Champloo, InuYasha, and Family Guy.
Hell yessssssssssssss for overexertion and poor time management...
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| For the past few weeks I've been waking up from dreams of my family. I am always ready to cry.
I never thought it would be this hard to be separated from the ones you love.
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| So something that my roomate Ariel said to me a few days ago really struck me.
(To paraphrase), "Christina, I feel like you don't need a male
counterpart. Not gonna lie, I can't see you in a relationship -
it's time to start taking boy toys and having ridiculous amounts of
casual sex."
lol, so maybe the last part of that sentence wasn't necessary, but
yeah- back to the point, I do kinda feel that way. I've heard
similar opinions echoed by a few other college friends. I'm not
looking for a relationship, and I don't know if I'd be particularly
open to having one right now.
Two problems: like I've wrote about before, I have a problem with
intimacy. Only now am I coming to terms with that. I'm
uncomfortable with getting close to people, I'm uncomfortable with
people trying to get to know me. People who have wanted to
get to know me, to penetrate this wall that I impose between others and
me - I get all defensive and I push them away. Not good.
And I know that. But yeah, crush one me and you'll get
crushed.
Second, I almost feel as if being in a relationship would compromise my
sense of self. What would I have to give up to play the role of
the girlfriend? I've always prided myself on being this
emotionally strong, fairly intelligent young woman - I can't see that
being endearing to any man. My personality is...ahem, for the
lack of a better word, emasculating. I have high standards, and I
have no qualms about making that clear everybody I know. I'm not
willing to lower those standards.
And yes, I know what you're thinking. All of the aforementioned
issues have been addressed by Kelly Clarkson's music, all of which I
value for its universal insight and pop-oriented enlightment. But
it's not that simple, Kelly Clarkson. It really isn't.
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| I can now say that, in the name of truth and with complete honesty,
after multiple viewings and re-readings I...am...soooo... over...
Brokeback Mountain. The days to which this story held its
electrifying grip on me has come to an end, having surpassed only
Pocahantas in its heavy-hearted, woebegone embrace.
Mo' updates later.
EDIT++++++++++++++++
-Chuck Norris sleeps with a night light. Not because Chuck Norris is afraid of the dark, but the dark is afraid of Chuck Norris.
-When Chuck Norris was in middle school, his English teacher assigned an
essay: "What is Courage?" Chuck Norris received an "A+" for writing
only the words "Chuck Norris" and promptly turning in the paper.
-When Chuck Norris sends in his taxes, he sends blank forms and includes
only a picture of himself, crouched and ready to attack. Chuck Norris
has not had to pay taxes ever.
-A Handicap parking sign does not signify that this spot is for
handicapped people. It is actually in fact a warning, that the spot
belongs to Chuck Norris and that you will be handicapped if you park
there.
-If at first you don't succeed, you're obviously not Chuck Norris.
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